If you wanted to question my decision, the steps back in my progress you took me back on are proof enough to show that thinking of myself is EXACTLY what I need to do. Can’t get over how bad my anxiety got… I want out, and this time I’m not asking, I’m not doubting, it’s happening. It’s sad to see how those who are supposed to help are the ones that hurt you the most. Can’t believe how careless we can be with others’ hearts and minds. And like in court, ignorance is not a form of defense. If you don’t know, don’t try to act like you do.
I just ask that if I’ve ever hurt anyone, made them question themselves and/or affected anyone negatively to forgive me.
Ahhhhhhh can I just scream and go to bed? ?… I feel like I’m back like 6 months ago… Not fair… No bueno… And I need to go to bed and be productive tomorrow. The Holy Spirit is my only hope for a good day tomorrow ?
Oh yea, I guess this is as good as time as ever to let you all know, I’ve suffered with depression and anxiety… And I couldn’t be more certain about God’s love than I am right this minute. He LOVESSSSSS me, and is with me in my struggle. Can’t say that about everyone else, but who needs anyone else when you have God? Not loving this instance but this too shall pass. Just wish it did real quick so I can go enjoy my comfy bed ?
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